I want to look better. I want to feel attractive. Better health should always be an achievment, but honestly I want to look better on the outside more! I'm being quite honest here. I hate the way my body looks. Better health will be a great side effect, not the other way around. I know it's not very politically correct to say this, but that's the way I feel right now. I'm embarrsed of the way I look in whatever outfit I choose to wear., even my scrubs. I avoid looking at my whole body in the mirror. I change my clothes in the closet or in the dark, so my husband can't see. He doesn't think I have anything to be embarrased about. But then, he doesn't live in this body, and wear it out in public, in today's image conscious world. I know we should all strive to be less image-aware of ourselves and others, but...............yeah, its a nice thought.
I've always been self conscious about my teeth, and as a 39 year old woman I am pretty darn tired of always hiding behind my hand when I smile. I want to feel free to laugh and smile as big as I want to.
We want to finally start our family.
