Despite what I tell myself in moments of loneliness, I was not happy. He cannot give me what I need - because he really is incapable. He did not treat me well, and I made a mistake. I deserve to be happy, and I will be happier as an independent person free to focus on my own needs and pursue my own goals.
I think it would help my self confidence and regular exercise would help lessen the depression. I like to be able to wear "cute" clothes and shop anywhere in the mall - not being able to do so makes me feel bad about myself and takes away a lot of things I enjoy.
I think this is a big part of taking care of myself - which I would like to do more often.
So I can get the kind of job I've always wanted. To be proud of something I've accomplished. Because I hate leaving things unfinished - loose ends are draining.
